im a little drunk so bare with me!
I’ve been out tp the local clubs for my friends birthdays which was meant to be fun. its so close to my exams so i was never gunna get too drunk drunk cause it was like exams. so yeah. but theres this girl she’s called ellie and she’s so hot she’s beautiful its crazy and like she wanted my friends weeks ago but that ended for two reasos he has a girlfriends and just life.
well tonight she wanted me… i was so excited all i wanted was just just be confident enough to get on her and just do something without giving ahit if I’m worth it or not. however, the only night i was sober enough to be ready for something so perfect my best friend sam spilt two jager bombs all over my crotch. it was so sticky and wet all night. my testicals hahah (love that word) was sticking to my thighs) i just felt like dirty however me and ellie shared a few kisses ahahahha.
but i never sealed it and my best friend C who has the girlfriend wanted to go home. i soon realised that she was trying to make him and my other best mate H jelous. there both insanely good looking its unreal then theres me. just a tool for other people.
I’ve never felt so ugly, so disgusting. so glad I’m home… i feel desperate so desperate and to be honest i wanna talk to this guy who I’ve met in gay chat rooms and just talk on Skype. (i have an awful history of “c2c” with strange men on Skype, but he’s my age and a decent guy and he gets me sort of i dunno. i love girls but cause I’m not out as aa per suer of men too i can never be honest.
this is so disjointed… i hope someone can give me advice to sort my head out…
thank god that MacBooks have spell check
byway how is everyone??? love all you guys seriously.
night
Z X
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